F**K

F**k you for making me feel like this
F**k you for making me cry like this
F**k you for making me bleed like this
F**k you for making me die like this

I hate how they make me so jealous
Taking you
Stealing you
Right from my hands
Temptation is there
No matter how much you try not to stare
I can't help but wonder
Why I even care
It's a never ending fight for me
To hold onto reality
But thinking of you makes it so much worse
You make me worry
You make me be things I wish I'd never seen
You make me so different
It's like I'm not even me
Slowly I'm dying
But I just can't let go
I can't let go of your love
Even thought it is true
Just the fact that you're not with me
Just the fact that you could be with someone else
Scares me so much that it's not even funny
This isn't some sort of teenage romantic comedy
I'm fighting with myself

you say everythings fine
and you write it all down
but everything you've ever said or wrote
didnt mean shit
i dont want some emission from you
i want you to sit down and say it to my face
if you just give me it and i read it later
nothings ever going to work out
i cant be the one who attmpts to break apart what you write
im not going to try and figure it out like some lame code
everything you've ever done
you did it for a reason
im not asking for some huge explanation
just a simple response
tell me why
explain to me why everytime i call you, you never want to talk
but when i call your friends and talk to them
you get mad at me
tell me why everytime i get sick
you treat me like i cant handle myself
do you think i dont know what im doing?
explain to me why everytime we fight
i get some lame ass note
and you think thats going to make it all better
tell me why i should forgive you
give me one good reason to let this all go
and when i admit im wrong
you play it off like you knew the entire time
i dont understand
how your petty things make this huge ordeal straight
explain to me  why i should let it go
and forgive at this rate
well fuck you
because honestly i dont understand